Habakkuk

Habakkuk

June 3, 2009, 10:15 PM

Hi this is Lee. Probably not the title you were expecting to update from this morning’s very important appointment with the neurologist/pain management specialist from Seattle. First, thank each of you for your prayers. While we didn’t get the answers we all were hoping for, God’s presence was made known as He guarded my mouth from the harsh things that so badly wanted to come out, as He protected our hearts from utter despair, and in the moment - as He invisibly wiped away the tears that I knew were pouring but realizing my face was dry. My integrity, motives, and faith had been assaulted and the lack of a visible breakdown allowed me to leave with my dignity.

In short tonight, the doctor was within minutes side-tracked by the history of my brain surgery nine years ago and felt the need to determine if I “actually” needed that brain surgery. Obviously for those of you who walked those desperate years with us searching for a diagnosis and seeing the outcome - we all know I am alive today because of those skilled minds and hands in New York. As we explained this critical nature of that time, she commented “It’s nice you have that faith it made you better. Good for you.” As for why we were there - to address my chronic, debilitating headaches following our car accident several years later and resulting brain injury, she said it was complicated but best she could tell, I didn’t need my previous surgery and probably had some form of migraine then but she didn’t know what to do (really, didn’t care) about now because of my high doses of medication needed to control the pain. Again she assaulted my character and integrity in how we have managed my healthcare. Whew! A lot to take in for the less than 30 minutes we spent with her in the office.

Habakkuk - as we rode in silence, both reeling and praying on our own, the Lord put the little ole’ prophet Habakkuk on my heart. We have decided to get in Little Red (our greatly loved and worn out with 200,000 miles Miata), as we do in times like these, to go on a long ride, with creation, with worship music and see where the Lord leads and how He heals our hearts from this day and explore the book of Habakkuk to see what the Lord wants to teach me. I’ll let you know …

We have no plan at all at this point and 13 days left with insurance! Keep those prayers comin’! We love all of you.

Lee (and Steve)

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Messages

Kelly Wahle June 3, 2009, 11:06 PM Thanks for the update, Lee. I know from personal experience how difficult and utterly frustrating it is when you interact a dr. who just does not get it and goes down the wrong path and proves to be of little help. I wake up at night and you two are on my heart and God leads me to pray. I am holding onto hope for you.

Betsy Ramsey June 4, 2009, 12:51 AM I am so sorry….I am praying…I am so glad that this world is not our home and that we are just passin’ through!

Juli Sharp June 4, 2009, 2:40 AM wow! you both continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. juli

Royce Brooks June 4, 2009, 2:45 AM How heavy our hearts are for both of you tonight, but we still know that God is GOD! He has not forsaken you; He will preserve His people. He will reveal His plan in HIS TIME and in HIS WAY. Habakkuk came to the same conclusion when he said “Yet I will exult in the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds’ feet, and makes me walk on my high places.” Know that we will continue to petition Him on behalf of you and your needs, and choose to trust Him to provide. We agree with the prophet Micah, “as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.” We wish we could just take you in our arms and comfort you, but instead have asked The Great Comforter, our El Shaddai to do that. We love you! Gary and Royce / Dad and Mom

Sandi Henry June 4, 2009, 2:49 AM I’ll say it again, you guys are amazing. I’ll bet that doctor will never forget you. Hopefully God will help her see the Truth someday. I pray that God will show you the next step to take and that He will give wisdom to the doctor He leads you to. Sending a big hug to both of you. Hope that car ride helped! love, sandi

Tim & Cindy McNeill June 4, 2009, 3:40 PM Dear Lee, I just spent an hour reading your journey and looking at your pictures. You are such an inspiration and a wonderful witness to the meaning of FAITH. Thank you for sharing your journey and your true feelings on this page. You beloved Jasper was as blessed to have you and Steve as parents as you were blessed by her. We too are dog lovers and people who have never experienced the unconditional love and companionship of an animal have no clue what they are missing. Prayers that someone will come up with that magic answer to your health issues. Keep up the determined fight. Keep the FAITH! Blessings…Cindy (& Tim)

Nola von Neudegg June 4, 2009, 3:48 PM Thank you for the update Lee. I’ve heard that the greater the challenge, the greater the miracle. God must have a whopper of a miracle in store for you girl! But I wish you didn’t have to go through this kind of a challenge to get your miracle. I’m here and available if there is anything I can do to help. Nola

Michelle Grande June 6, 2009, 8:32 PM Lee and Steve, We will continue to pray for you both as you walk through the desert on your way to healing. We know we have a mighty God even when others are blind to His power. I’m not sure how all of this fits into His plan but we will lean on Him when we don’t know what else to do. Please keep us posted on how best to pray for you. Sending much love, The Grandes

Dan Sharp June 7, 2009, 9:37 PM Hi Lee and Steve, I don’t have anything profound to say or experience to share. I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you. I am inspired by your strength and positive disposition. Steve, way to stay supportive!

Martha Foust June 7, 2009, 11:56 PM Lee, I count it an honor to be at your side during this time. I have been praying for healing, comfort, trust and joy. Maybe I can add the joy for a few days. You are such a special gift!! I love you, Mom

Link Hudson June 9, 2009, 2:37 PM Lee and Steve, I’m so sorry to hear about this latest development. It really makes me angry, but I appreciate your testimony on how you are dealing with it. I will continue to pray that our Savior reveals himself in a mighty way in this situation.